6th
What’s wrong with me? Why haven’t I dived in head-first yet in a passionate pursuit after the destiny for which I was created?
What’s wrong with me? Learning to come to grips with the realization that some of the deepest desires of my heart and soul aren’t meant to be on this side of eternity and heaven’s door as hard as I may try and as much as I may want hurts much more than words can describe and makes me want to corner to curl up into a ball and cry. However, if the only cost and price that my maker and the lover of my soul is asking me to pay and sacrifice for the privilege of picking up my cross and pursue after him for a chance to spend eternity and forever with him in heaven in the presence of his glory and holiness is to let go of my most cherished yearnings, why am I still holding onto what I want rather than letting go of them to pursue after the sole purpose and reason that I was created for that alone fulfills me beyond comprehension and imagination? Why haven’t I dived in head-first yet in a passionate pursuit after the destiny for which I was created?
